July 19, 2019
Hmm, I don't know where to even begin except I have a cocktail in hand and OMG it is HOT BEYOND WORDS. Today, and all through the weekend, temps are going to feel over 105 degrees, with Saturday and Sunday feeling like 115. This is so NOT Fit4Janine! In fact, it has been so incredibly hot the past few weeks, and it is all falling at the same time that I am getting pictures taken for some super bougie and WARM Fall pieces.
Case in point - I wore a high neck, forest green, cable wool/cashmere blend sweater (so cute, by Vince) today and just had to get pictures taken outside of this cute restaurant with their bistro tables and chairs.
But, you know what, you do what you gotta do! And, as much I am so critical of the way I look on camera, I am (secretly - well, not so secret anymore) loving every minute of it.
You ready for this month's "12 Reasons '19' Has My Heart" series?
Reason #6: When Life Gives You Lemons, You Strike Your Best Pose!
And by lemons, I really mean this shirt. Ha! Well, actually, besides being in a FUNK, and wondering where the heck my next paycheck will be coming from, I have been fortunate enough - the business is taking one for the team - to purchase some super cute items that I have been showcasing on social media this past week. Just in case you are wondering what I am referencing, the Nordstrom "Anniversary Sale" has been my bff/boyfriend as of late.
Speaking of showcasing, I have been in front of the camera a LOT. I wanted to talk about my feelings on this a little more, and I am going to "beg, borrow, and steal" the following from a post I wrote a few weeks ago.
If you don't already know this about me, you are going to find out right now. I love (okay, more on the really like) getting my picture taken BUT I am so f-ing critical of myself it is not even funny. I swear, what I see in the mirror in a said outfit does not look the same once photographed. And, yes, I know the camera adds "10 lbs." Additionally, I have been holding off on getting content pictures taken because, as I have made mention, I am have been going through various hormonal issues - specifically, my thyroid - that has my weight all over the place. Not to mention, retaining water like crazy, and I have not felt comfortable in my own skin. Believe me, this whole critiquing of myself is nothing new but it does not help when you do not feel like yourself.
We all have our things and, right now, I am trying to navigate this as best I can. Putting yourself out there on social media is going to come with commentary. It is the nature of the beast. At the end of the day, it's about being passionate about what you are doing, and what your brand is promoting to the world.
Most people are not going to be paying attention to the cellulite on your legs, how "big" your upper body looks because you lift weights, or "wow, that boxy shirt makes her look HUGE." Yup, these are all the things that were coming to my mind when looking at some of the pics that were taken.
At the end of the day, being a "model" is more than just the appearance. It is about loving yourself, understanding the ebbs and flows, and showing your audience that you are human, you go through shit too, and it is not all glitz, glam, and filtered photos.
And, at the end of the day, I am doing something that I, deep down, love. Yes, money is not coming in quick enough, and yes, I feel like I cannot catch my breath with all that I have going on, BUT, I have to keep remembering the long term goal.
I have to keep remembering that "when life gives you lemons, you strike your best pose, OWN IT, and know the best is yet to come!"
P.S. In case you have missed them, here are the past "12 Reasons Why "19" Has My Heart" posts: