June 13, 2019
Dun, dun, duuunnnn...HA! Can you tell that I am in a creative funk right now? Please, HELP! Maybe if I was able to sleep - yes, it is 4:30 am on a Thursday morning and I am WIDE AWAKE - things would come a whole lot easier. Luckily, I have a big old cup of coffee to help the cause.
Yesterday, I was chatting with my Mom on the phone while hustling to and from appointments, and I told her I just wanted to cry. Is it fair to say that I blame this last month of feeling like a "hot mess" on France? Totally joking! It just seems that ever since I got back, things have been in a state of "WTF."
You know, that feeling of being really busy ("to-do" list is never ending), but not productive; business seems to be pulling me in all different directions, but struggling to yield returns for the hustle; having that pit in my stomach when I have to reach out to my financial advisor to say "guess what, I need to withdrawal more money to support this endeavor I feel so strongly about;" my personal life, well, it's my personal life right now; and you get the picture.
All my "wtf's" aside, I am excited about the next couple weeks of working with a local lifestyle photographer, as well as my sister, to get some amazing content for some upcoming clothing, accessories, products, etc. that I love, tout, and want YOU to check out! As I mentioned in a post earlier this week, TOMORROW my bedroom is being taken over to get some really FUN pictures of me, doing my thang, in my sanctuary. As you can see, the set-up is already starting to happen.
The pro's to all of this? A whole new slew of makeup (plus a "full time" hair and makeup gal), clothing, accessories, shoes (oh the shoes, lol), and so much more! Ahh, I cannot wait for you to see!
Well, I guess you could say that the moral of this story is when feeling in a funk, shopping, shopping, and more shopping seem to do the trick! KIDDING! Seriously, though, do you ever feel that you spend MORE MONEY when you really shouldn't be spending money. It seems to happen all the freaking time!
In all honesty, the moral of this story is no matter how much things seem/feel like an uphill struggle, there is still this burning passion to continue the journey because you believe in it so fucking much. And, in a recent quote that was shared with me by my business partner, it kind of sums it up right now...
"Being an entrepreneur is weird. Because, even on your worst days, when you are surrounded in debt, taking losses, missing targets, losing hope and support, you are STILL living out your dream and holding it tightly to the vision. That takes a special kind of insanity."
Happy Thursday the 13th loves! Remember to keep your head up, keep navigating the course, and never stop going after what you want and are passionate about in life!
Even if it means living in your bougie new shoes...