February 6, 2019
"We travel because we need to, because distance and difference is the secret to creativity. When we get home, home is still the same, but something in our minds has changed, and that changes everything!"
And I could not agree more!
Now, I am not saying this is for everyone BUT, for right now, in my life, this is EXACTLY what is needed for me to heal, get out of my own way and comfort zone, and, FINALLY, start to feel what it means to be truly happy.
For the past 33 years, I have called Baltimore my home. This is a city that I have always loved, and one that is filled with family, friends, and a lifetime of memories.
And, as I sit here, staring at the Caribbean, I remember that very day 2 years ago when I said I had to make a change. I had to create a lifestyle that was going to give me the opportunity to get out of Baltimore, and start living a life that is Fit4Janine.
It’s HERE, in Baltimore (not the Caribbean), where I had the opportunity, and the privilege, to attend private school, buy my 1st home, have the “fairytale” Wedding, run my 1st marathon, start a business, and, above all, be able to stay closely connected to my family and friends.
This is the same city, though, that I feel has turned its back on me. I can’t explain why it feels this way BUT it just does. The city where I have laid down my “roots” for the past 3 decades feels so disjointed. It feels a bit, well, toxic. No, this is NOT me “turning my back” on the life and business I have built but, instead, it is about me breaking through my, current, lifestyle barrier in an effort to create a better life and business for myself, my family, and for both the Fit4Janine and 2 Health Nuts brands.
Change is hard for me; letting others in and opening up about my feelings, and what I am going through, is really hard. Just writing that statement seems like a bit of an oxymoron since vulnerability and trust are what building an online business/brand is all about.
I don’t know what the “right” answer is BUT what I do know is that I need to continue trusting my process.
I need to continue listening to that voice inside me that says "you need to do this for you."
I have to keep reminding myself that what is #fit4janine may be exactly what is needed to unlock the happiness and creativity that I have been so desperately missing! And even though I have been working this process for a couple years, I still am waiting for that breakthrough.
I think I am almost there...okay, maybe not (ha)...but I have to keep plugging away. I guess I have to keep staring at the ocean, visiting California, NYC, some upcoming surprise locations too, and just keep doing my thing!
Until then, I will have another glass of vino and call it a successful day!