April 25, 2019
I mean, I feel like I have used 2.0, 3.0, 4.0, 5.0, and yada, yada, yada. Earlier this week on social media, I posted THIS picture of me that was taken almost 2 years ago in what I would consider to be my home away from home - Santa Monica.
To this day, I think this FABULOUS photo session will always hold a special place in my heart. There is something about the colors, too, which just scream SPRING...and warmer weather too.
➡️It was the "rebirth" of "Janine Serio" (I think version 2.0 - ha) and the launch of "Fit4Janine."
➡️I was living in Santa Monica for 6 weeks, indulging and thriving in the fabulous SoCal lifestyle. The BEST "Fun Fact" was that I went there with $18 in my checking account.
And this is the story I want to share...
So, yes, I went to California with $18 in my checking account. For those who have been, or can just guess, Santa Monica is one of the most expensive cities in the SoCal vicinity. Sure, did I feel strapped - umm, YES - but it was a different kind of "struggle." Being there, I was surrounded by entrepreneurs JUST LIKE ME who were trying to get their start, and working 10 jobs to just make rent & pay their bills.
They get it and they could relate.
Before I left for Santa Monica, and here is where it gets personal, I took my engagement and wedding ring(s) to the jeweler where they were purchased. This was a decision I had struggled with for a couple months. I had always thought that I would keep them, or re-create them into a pair of diamond earrings, or, I guess, just have them sit in the safe. I can’t remember the exact day I stopped wearing them but I can say it had been 2 years that they sat in one of my Tiffany jewelry bags, collecting dust, and doing nothing more than causing me more pain every time I opened my safe.
After a lot of soul-searching, talking with my family, therapist, and even several jewelers (let’s face it, they have seen it ALL), I decided the best decision for ME was to sell them back to their rightful home. If I had a daughter I could have given them to, I would have done so, BUT, I needed to close this chapter. Re-creating them would only remind me of “what was.” Keeping them in a safe would not be serving any purpose.
Sure, I could have invested the money but, instead, I decided to use the money to start re-investing in myself.
I will always remember the day I got engaged, the day I got married, the day I signed my divorce papers and, now, the day my Mom, Sister, and I handed over one of the last pieces of my former life. With tears in our eyes, we ALL walked away knowing this was the right thing to do. Yes, you may be reading this and wondering why it sounds like it was a “group decision” but, as I am sure you can understand (and even relate), sometimes you just need that reassurance, even when you know you are doing the right thing.
So, as for me, I am going to keep doing what I want to do. Keep living the life that I want to live. Keep listening to my gut that is saying something BIG is going to happen. If that means I will be paying credit cards, loans, and other frivolous bills because I lived a life that is #fit4janine, and made something of myself, well, that may be just what I have to do!
And, almost 2 years later, I still live by this very motto. Some may disagree on this decision - hey, we all have our own opinions - but this is the constant tug and pull that I feel, and I will never (again) turn away from what my heart, and my gut, are telling me to do.
P.S. Photo credit due to the FABULOUS Violeta Meyners who came into my life at a time when she was going through the same struggles, and the one who keeps telling me you are so close to having it "all," just keep your head up!